Do You Feel Guilty for Being an Artist?

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By Marion Bobby-Evans

Do you ever feel guilty for your creativity? For being an artist or painter, for enjoying what you do so much, rather than working in a ‘normal’ or ‘sensible’ job? Have you ever been told you’ll never make a living from your painting, that it’s suitable only as a hobby? That there’s no real use for artists in society, unlike for doctors, lawyers, engineers? There was a lengthy discussion on creativity and guilt on the Painting Forum, the highlights of which are collated here for easy reading. The general consensus is that you need “a hide like a water buffalo to be an artist”, must learn to ignore the comments of other (non-creative) people, and have no reason to feel guilty about your creativity.

“It always amazes me: people who don’t know their butt from their elbow, sound soauthoritative and say the most damaging things like art is not real work and other gems like that … If you gave them a brush and a canvas, after a few hours of trying to paint something discernible, they would be begging for help or stop altogether. I actually saw that happen in real life with my Italian painting teacher. Someone on the street was taunting him saying that art was easy and that he could do that too if he wanted. My teacher then shoved a couple of brushes into this person’s arms with a canvas and he turned into a miserable little worm and slithered away.” — Victor

“I don’t feel guilty for being a painter, but I do feel disappointed about my low output in finished paintings … I feel upset about having the ability to paint and not fulfilling my purpose in this field. I know that there is more to life than painting, but, painting adds so much more to life. I believe the mind of an artistic person can be full of frustration because the desire to create is always there but the ability to work, for many reasons, is snuffed out.” –Brian

“I wanted to make a living by drawing, but didn’t see it as practical. I did need new jobs skills, however, and went to a technical school. There I took drafting. I could draw all day and be paid big money. I also took classes in commercial art. The teacher there emphasized it was possible to make a living at art. You just had to approach it as a business. She also said you were an artist even if you chose not to make a living at it. It was not the paying of money that made you an artist. Yes, it was better to get paid, but not necessary. If you wanted to keep it separate, and do something else for money, fine, but if you do want to make a living at it you do have to be practical and a little ruthless. She worked for many years as an executive in an insurance company making a lot of money, but it was not enough. She decided to get serious about art. But she, like many of us needed those years in the world to create the internal environment that allowed her to persue art. Time spent doing other things is not necessarily wasted. Only if we waste what we learned.” –Starrpoint.

“I feel guilty when I DON’T create.” –Carol

“The only guilt I have is that I didn’t recognize my own creativity years ago when I did my first couple of paintings and didn’t continue on. But better late than never. We only have one run around the block … why not enjoy it? … I have always encouraged my children to follow the arts, regardless of what type of art it is, I think it is important for the human spirit to be able to express yourself no matter whether it’s through painting, writing, music, etc. And no one should ever feel guilty about that.” –Tootsiecat

“No one expects to know math or any other subject before they start to learn, but we are all expected to be great artist without any effort. It comes hand and hand with the idea that artist don’t work. It is work.. We have to learn. It is very hard work. Talent is only the beginning! Its what you do with the talent that counts, and you cannot tell by looking at someone if they can paint, play an instrument, etc. Artist are not popped out in a mold, one size fit all.”–Starrpoint.

“I’m always conscious of time and I do feel guilty when I don’t create also. Luckily, I have a good excuse because I’m always doing something useful and I’m usually thinking about painting anyway, even when I’m just relaxing … I feel like it is a 24/7 thing, I need to be thinking and talking about painting or relating what I see to painting.” –Victor

“I worked for nearly 30 years in various engineering, design and R&D departments. Let me tell you, all the really good ones had plenty of artists in them. Being an artist is being creative. If you don’t think it takes the soul of an artist to come up with a creative solution to the needs of society, you don’t understand the question. Bridges, buildings, roads, the fabric of our world needs artists. Some work with paint, or stone or steel, others work with math, sound and genes. No, I don’t feel guilty about being as artist, as such. I feel guilty that I have created so little when the world needs so much.” –Starrpoint.

Fail

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I know.

I don’t try enough to win all the time

So falling short of an art competition should be no surprise to me just disappointing.

Of course not as surprised and disappointed I was when that deer ran out in front of me this week.

No chance of stopping in sight.

So my disappointment moved from my show to my truck.

Something always comes along to make it better.

I’m glad I wasn’t driving my new used X* terra.

And although I was ready to let my truck go it’s sad to see it go this way.

I’m still driving it until I get some brush bars for the front of my other car.

I know.

Paranoid.

Nope smart.

I don’t drive enough to win all the time.

Summer blues

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I got up early this morning feeling refreshed.

I sat outside with my coffee.

It was cool and still with a hint of fall in the air.

A faint dripping noise was in the background.

It’s damp but not wet.

I thank God for the moment and wonder what the day will bring.

Being that it is the last day of this long weekend.

The dripping persists almost like a woodpecker. The birds join in.

There’s a haze in the distance but the grass is very green and the woodchips orange.

A hummingbird buzzes a little too close.

The sun is trying to come out adding some color to the trees and then subsides.

A quiet wind has picked up and the clouds are rolling by.

The birds are surprisingly quiet again but that dripping never stops.

I get these visual revelations in my head sometimes.

As to how I should finish a painting that I’ve been struggling with or avoiding.

It’s a painting that has been sitting for quite awhile.

None of the ones I’ve been working on or even thinking about.

I found it and pulled it out of the garage.

It had some striking moments which I am pleased with but it’s in a medium I no longer work with.

But if there’s and end in sight this is a painting for me.

Wisdom is not as complicated as people think.

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This is a photo I keep coming back to from time to time. It’s a child hood memory. A time and place. 

No great artist ever sees things as they really are.

If they did, they would cease to be an artist.

Oscar Wilde.

Painting has been a vigorous and emotional endeavor. It has been a constant source of anxiety and delight.

I want it to be uncomplicated and practical.

you do not say the same thing in one room as you say in another…….Louis Kahn

Where do they get this stuff?

The same people who say “I want to make beautiful living effortless.”

Now this I like…practical no…but like yes.

As artists we encounter the unexpected.

We need to use our artist instincts.

And maybe reveal our secrets of the trade.

Wisdom is not as complicated as people think.

Making hay with words.

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Making hay with words.

Sitting here painting enormously absorbed.

Detail is my essential preoccupation.

As I investigate my progress I see I am far from finished and the further I get the less done it looks.

But importantly I have to make sure I don’t over paint it.

I think I need a break and a beverage.

We made it through the Polar Vortex. How’s the weather doing on your half?

Last week it was -40 degrees F and today it was 40 degrees.

Tomorrow we have a winter storm warning from 7:00am-12:00pm with possible blizzard conditions but not until after I get to work.

We call this winter here hey:)

The cross-country ski’s are ready.

I know I should be thinking about getting this painting done but I like to think skiing is part of my creative process.

We went skiing two weekends ago.

The timing was perfect right before the deep freeze.

While we were getting our ski’s on we saw the tail end of four deer pass before us about 25 yards away.

Nature at it’s best.

What is required to paint when you have none.

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It has been dark and dreary for two days.

We have been in a tornado watch all day.

I have been working a lot of over time so my painting has been minimized and limited to none.

It is all my fault I suppose…no energy, no ambition and no desire.

It is funny what is required to paint when you have none.

It is nice when you have a little left in the end of the day.

That little bit can make a difference.

Instead I sit and stare at my paintings in process and say I can’t. I can not see it happening.

My birthday was in October.

My birthday marks another year for me more importantly than the annual New Years Eve party and celebration that takes place every year in January throughout the United States.

I like that day too but my birthday is a special day that bookmarks my unique timeline.

It is telling me I have one year before I reach another decade in my life and part of a century as well.

So instead of a party…my goal is to have another art showing or another one lined up by my next birthday.

A show usually consist of 10-15 paintings. That is a painting a month. Is it do able yes. Can I find the time that is the question of the day?

Some how I was able to miss three deer standing in the middle of the road yesterday so I feel anything is possible today.

I call it the Finnish Sisu.

Sisu is about taking action against the odds and displaying courage and resoluteness in the face of adversity. Deciding on a course of action and then sticking to that decision against repeated failures is sisu.